So here it is almost three years since I last posted.......seems unbelievable. Where did the past three years go? In many ways, they went by so slowly and then in so many other ways, it flew by. I guess, I should update on the biggest difference in my life since I last posted. I am now divorced. After 30 years of marriage. I will not elaborate on the specifics out of respect for my ex-husband, any myself for that matter. I will say....it was a long time coming. Anyone who may tell you that divorce is not a big deal or not as complicated as others say.....is lying. It is awful. It is gut-wreching. Sickening. Sickeningly sad. It brings you to the depths of your greatest despair. It makes you sick. Literally. It is by far the worst experience of my life - besides my mother literally dropping dead on me. My surgeries have been beyond comprehension with regard to the pain and the recovery.........but those I could wrap my head around. They were......like giving birth. You knew there would be a positive at the end. Well, that is not entirely true. I didn't know that.......and it hasn't been a bed of roses nor the magical solution and miracle one would hope for. But that experience was more physical. It certainly didn't have a lot of emotional componenets to it, no doubt. But not like a divorce. After 30 years of marriage. THIRTY years. That is a really long time. I knew my ex-husband from the time I was 16 years old. I was 51 years old when the divorce became final. I've known him for more than  2/3 of my life. To say my current life has been an adjustment, is putting it..........mildly. Very mildly.

So all intent and purposes, I am doing to leave out the past three years. They are personal. Maybe in time I will be able to write about it..........but for now, I simply cannot. So from this point on, I am going to concentrate on the NOW. Where I am now. And it is a REALLY good place to be! I am really loving my life at the present. I am filled with happiness and gratitiude and love. Life is good. Life is beautiful. And at this point, my life is almost perfection. Perfection for my life? Wait.........what is perfection anyway? Hmmm......lert me ponder that for a while.